Formal apology form LOL

An old saying

I complained of having no shoes until I saw a man with no feet.

This brought to mind the 5th promise - self-pity will disappear.

"The antidote for self-pity is action. Self-pity is revealed as selfishness, unwarranted pride and an unhealthy ego. Self-pity is an extension of self-absorption and leads losers to depend on "cop-outs" to explain why the program failed to work for them. Self-pitiers never grasp the truth that a recovery program has few failures but many quitters.
We start feeling sorry for ourselves when our demands are rejected for everything on our terms. We ultimately understand that we can't work this program our way. We stop trying easier, softer ways and stop holding onto old ideas. Growth becomes easier after we develop a willingness to go to any length to arrive on solid ground." (from AA's 12 promises)

Followers

It is often said that religion should be left out of conversation as there are so much different interests out there....case in point, it seems that as soon as I shared a prayer that I came across that a few of my fellow bloggers dropped off....just interesting thoughts.

I've shared what I did because I am finding myself at a cross road at the moment....wondering where I belong, what i should be doing and where I should be going. I have a void and my obsessive thoughts have not been very helpful and I know from past experience that if I want to get out of that funk, that I'd better get busy with something.

I like being retired and having the ability to do things without having to schedule it in between other obligations but at the same time I'm feeling like I'm idling in slow motion......and as soon as I start to consider something....things in my life start happening and then it makes me wonder how I could fit in anything more.

Right now, I'm just opening my self up for opportunities and sending out to the universe my desire to be of more use and to grow further emotionally and spiritually. More will be revealed and I simply need to practice more patience.....knowing very well that I am where I am suppose to be in this moment in time.

Prayer for achievement

Many times, we are held back by a sense that we are simply not good enough, talented enough or smart enough to do what we want to do. We pray for God to free us from the internal chains that bind us. Self-confidence stems from confidence in Him. It is not we alone who do the work. The work is done by Him who is within us.

Dear God,
I feel that my life is less than it should be.
I cannot find my freedom or my passion.
I have so much inside me that stays shut down, that isn't free.
I hurt so much to know I am not living at full force.
My talents are not used as I wish.
My abilities are not fully formed.
My energies are so suppressed.
Dearl Lord, I do not know how to break free of the ways I constantly negate myself.
I hold myself prison somehow.
I know I do.
I know it is my own illusion, this prison in which I live, yet I cannot break free, though i try so hard.
Please, dear God, break down the walls that surround me.
Melt this prison.
Free my soul that I might be as You would have me be:
Free to live,
To soar,
To create,
To love,
To feel passion for good,
To do the good with passion.
I wish to fly.
I wish to feel Your full abundant spirit in me.
Give me this mircale.
Thank You.
Amen

(Illuminata - M. Williamson)