Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Leap Day

Ha! Such an appropriate day and/or title, as it has been a while since I came over here and sat down to write. I've had issues trying to figure out how to keep this blog following the opening of my gmail account and merge the two, however it frustrated me enough to stay away.....for whatever reason....today I felt the need to write and made my way over without much fuss or fanfare. "Where there's a will, there's a way"! Actually, I think it's more in the way of "If it's meant to be it will happen".

Anyhoo....it's true that I didn't have much to write about but now some things are in the back of my mind and of course that itty bitty shitty committee is having it's own meeting even when I close that door and go to other rooms and try to shift the focus.

It bothers me - the not knowing part, though not as much as it used to - and that's a good thing.

I've received notice over the weekend  that my son has been moved/removed from his w.r. center. So it didn't take me long to form speculations ......
1. He messed up and broke the rules and since this place was a 'no second' chance place - he lost his privileges and all the opportunities that had been put forth before him.
2. He lossed his newly acquired job - a requirement of living within that facility. He loved that job and found it challenging and interesting - though since he called me 4 times while on company time - I'm thinking they didn't like that very much. Heck....I certainly could understand this because as an employer I've instructed my employees that when they came to work it was to work and not to keep up with social life on my time block. Since he called home 4 times - I can imagine that he was calling others as well.

The rules don't seem to apply to him - he disregard them as if it's a joke and/or it doesn't matter....yet, time and time again - he gets caught for breaking them. I feel that when he's truly and honestly ready for a change then he'll do things differently.....in the mean time.....he gets to experience the natural consequences of his actions.

Then yesterday, out of the blue, I get a link from one of my friend....asking me if I had heard of the article she was sharing with me. The article stated that the w.r.center that my son had been at was due to close at the end of March because of lack of funding. Ummm.....so, I'm thinking......did I jump the gun here again with my assumptions of negative actions??  Perhaps the facility is slowly releasing it's members into the reception unit and they will be relocated elsewhere.

Another lesson for me in this.....and that is to remember that "no news is no news" and just to go with the flow. More is always revealed and I need to keep my "Helping" reading in the forefront.....first and foremost. "I will have no thought for the future actions of others, neither expecting them to be better or worse as time goes on, for in such expectations I am really trying to create. I will love and let be. All people are always changing. If I try to judge them, I do so only on what I think I know of them, failing to realize that there is much I do not know. I will give others credit for attempts at progress and for having had many victories which are unknown. I, too, am always changing, and I can make that change a constructive one, if I am willing. I can change myself. Others, I can only love."