Maman

Just got a call out of the blue from my brother today, it was nice to hear from him and it didn't occur to me that he might be calling with the news that he shared.
One of my mom's friend was trying to call her repeatedly and she hadn't returned the call which was really unusual for her. She contacted my brother while he was in the wilderness fishing to tell him of her concerns, since he couldn't get there in a timely manner, he called the police.
The police found my mother laying in the bathroom, she had been in the same position for two days and was very disoriented. She was transported to the hospital and has been waiting for a bed, stationed in a hallway....apparently a common procedure in Canada with the 'free' health care programs.
My brother and my sis-in-law were informed that she will not be returning to her home but will be placed in an assisted living facility. My brother will try to get her moved near him so that he can visit her more often. He will get to talk to the social worker in charge on Friday.
I will then make my plans to go and visit/assist in any way that I can.
This past year has been really hard for her and she has taken quite a down turn with her balance, memory and being depressed from her inability to do the things that she used to enjoy......all her friends have passed on and she is lonely.
I have not spent a whole lot of time with her since I've moved in the U.S.A. Money, work and what not....got in the way. Not only that, but I never felt really close to her and every visit left me drained and emotionally exhausted. Each time I arrived.....I wondered why I went. But for all the hurts, the pains, the lack of understanding and on and on and on.....she is still my mother and I love her so.